Sunday, July 31, 2005
This is my last blog for the month of July...WoW!
Can't believe I have been blogging for 1 whole month...
*Sob*...
I hope that I can continue on for many many months to come...
Went for my usual soccer outing on Sunday, quite surprised that so many people turn up today. Think got around 13...not bad..nowadays its quite hard to get the people together for soccer. Didn't wear my usual nike street soccer shoes..that time my shoes spoilt, went to mend it at a neighbourhood cobbler store..though it's fixed, I don't think I will use it to play soccer anymore. Today I wore my NS Brooks shoes for soccer, quite heavy compare to my nike..well, just have to get used to it first, until I have money to buy another pair.
Didn't score much goals...not at my usual standards...haha...quite lazy today. I guess I slept through the whole afternoon (damn wasted..)
Watch my VCDs (A date with a vampire 3)....then watch some more anime (Full metal alchemist)...a very nua day...haha
Talked to my friend on the phone, felt that I really lack something...
I always wonder, why with my charisma (haha!), my looks (wah piang!) and my flirt-ish voice(Er XIN!), still no GF...am I soft spoken? OR I don't really understand women...maybe I really am...
I think the problem is with my mentally and not with physical appearance (which I think its PERFECT...whahaha!)
How to find a guy nowadays who DON'T DO THE FOLLOWINGS:
1) DON'T smoke... (Have a family history of anti-smoking..)
2) DON'T drink alcohol...(Have yet! another family history of don't drink alcohol)
3) DON'T have a GF before in his L-I-F-E (Power leh...extinct! can't find already!)
4) DON'T chiong (Only knows how to stay at home and squeeze pimiple..haha!)
BUT...
Even got all these good points...STILL...a lonely guy...
My friend say I look like a reliable and honest guy...and also mentioned that girls after the age of 24 would like this kind of guy (which is me..)
Mmm...
Well, that explains why recently got quite a few girls (older than me) wanna add me in friendster..
I feel that maybe I am quite boyish, that might be the reason...
OH well...those girls who brush me off must have stamp on their eyes..(haha!I like this one!)
Maybe my time has not arrive yet...or maybe not in this life...haha!
Monday...another working week...back to square one...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Saturday, July 30, 2005
Saturday! At last! Finally had a good rest...
The whole of this week I have been out late, came back home and I still continue to surf the net till late morning (haha!) Going to become a marvel superhero character, let's see, maybe I can call myself "The Sleepless Man".
On Thursday, my friend dragged me down to see his new car after our classes, first I thought, wa liew....I wanna go home watch superstar and sleep, then he kept on pestering me to accompany him, so....
Oh well, just go lor, what the heck....
His brother is using the car at the moment as my friend have not get his class 3 license yet. When finally I get to see the car, I was like...oh wow! A Mazda 3! A very sporting car...the interior of the car is super classy..so envy..if only I have money to buy a car. Haiz, no choice, watch my Initial D anime ba. We took photos of us in the driver's seat..the photos are a bit sucky because I use my nokia phone to take.
At the moment, I still can't upload the phone, headache, will get it posted ASAP.
On friday, mmm....nothing particular happen, a busy day at work, after that went out with my friend for dinner and go chilli out for a while before we head home. Finally got my DVDs, haven't really try out yet. I will try to find time to do that.
Later I still have to go out...actually don't really feel like moving my butt, BUT...it' nothing personal, it's just WORK...
Saturday......Argh...miss my KTV, my TV, my PS2, my animes, my TVB drama and my "yandao" sleep...whaha...oh well, sucky...
Sighing....OOPS...I mean Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
Yo! Can't believe I am writing my blog at this kind of timing...
Today not so bad a day for me...went to lunch with my friend aka client and found out that she is quite a nice and friendly person. Always glad to make new friends...glad she is in the list...keke.
Later after work, went to meet my ex-colleagues from Takashimaya. Went for dinner at Sakura @ Far East. Food not bad...but a bit little.
After we finish our food, went to shop around at Far East then proceed to Coffee Bean to chat and talk cok...haha.
Took quite a number of pictures...will post them in my photo site soon.
When we were about to go home, I saw 2 ex-classmates from secondary school, quite surprised....long time didn't see them. Talk for a while, then exchanged numbers. Maybe can plan a secondary class gathering soon...I hope it won't be long. Don't wanna wait for 10 years then organise.
My new semester has officially begin. Damn sian....it's the beginning of lessons, assignments and exams! Oh my god! Hope it will be over soon.
Let me see...now Thursday...the Friday...going to weekends again...can look forward to the coming National Day holiday..keke..finally can rest a bit.
Haiz...most probably will rot at home...normally no one really jio me out..Hopefully can jio girl out instead...but for me, quite hard ba...
Thursday...having lesson AGAIN...ARGH....OH, I must remember to pack my bag...cannot forget to bring books to lesson.
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Monday, July 25, 2005
Quite a boring Monday...Never felt so "blue" in my life before...haha!
Had some unhappy stuff happened at work...prefer not to talk about it.
I always feel that everyone is wearing a "mask" in their lives. A different mask is used at different times. The process of changing the mask is quite tiring..A person might seem cheerful and happy, but is that really what it seems to be? Maybe not...
You might ask...Why wear a mask? Just be yourself! BUT....no...we can't do that in reality. We have to be a different person in different occassions.Look at yourself in the mirror...it's true, we can't control these things. This is a cruel society, only the toughest will survive.
Yes, it's tiring to keep on changing the masks..I, myself hate it too.
It's consider a weapon as well..it will sometimes help you to achieve what you want. Provided you choose the right mask to wear.
Can I abandon the masks one day? At the moment, I can't answer that.
Which is the real me? Guess I will never know...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
Boring day as usual...Watch a lot of TV and tried out the Initial D PS2 game that my friend lent me. Seems to me that the weather today isn't that good. Going out might be a bad choice.
Rested quite well, I finally get to sleep longer today. Don't have to wake up early and rush to work. Anyway, I finally got my hands on Initial D stage 4 edp 15 to 16. Haha! Later would be watching that....
Mmm...can't seem to find anyone to chat with now in msn. Well, just have to surf around the net. Didn't get to write my blog last night as I was really too tired to even think.
Really feel like changing my HP plan to incoming call free whole day. Currently my plan only allows me incoming call free from 7am to 7pm. However, I am bonded by Starhub now. Don't really feel like extending with them. My reception is always not good. Getting sick of it. One more year left, should be changing plan and phone at the same time.
I can hear the thunder now...damn! It's loud...
Oops! Here comes the RAIN!
Gotto go close the windows!
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Friday, July 22, 2005
Tiring manz....
It's been around 3 days since I last blog. Haha...watch a new set of TVB drama recently. Got another new series. Very funny...comedy...like it very much. Didn't regret getting it. :)
My new semester timetable came out, lessons will fall on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Absolutely no life...My RT will be around October period, hope it won't clash with my exams.
Headache!
Just watched Project Superstar...Derrick and Kelly got revived. Their fan base is really huge...I normally don't like those popular contestants, prefer those low profile ones.
Finally its Friday....another week passed..
Recently has been quite boring for me....
Hopefully, next week onwards, I would be so busy with school work that it won't be bored.
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Cough....Cough...Cough...Oh dear, still having a bad cough.
Can't believe I OT till 9pm, haha...I think I repeat the same thing to 10 different people. Challenging eh? Mmm...I am now damn shack. Actually thinking of getting MC for tomorrow. However, I still need to settle some stuff tomorrow, don't think its possible for me.
I didn't go and see a doctor. Not because that I am poor or what, but I am just plain lazy. I dig through my so called first aid box to look for medicine. In the end, my mum found it for me..haiz..
Tired...must be the medicine....
Tomorrow still must get up early...
Ok, guess that's all the writing for today!
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Sunday, July 17, 2005
Back from soccer....
Still have cough...terrible...hope can recover soon.
My damned soccer shoes gave way, just bought it a few months back.Can't believe it would give way that fast. I have to go back to my Brooks shoes. It would be the last time I buy sport shoes from that shop in Queensway.
Recently a lot of unhappy incidents happened in the past few days and it has been very depressing for me. Received another bad news today...I struggled a bit, thought about it. I finally decided to let it pass after much consideration.. I think that decision is very important for me. I felt that I had restarted myself. No use kept on thinking about these things and should let nature take its course. I came to accept that sometimes being a human being, you can't really change your fate. I can grab hold on opportunities, but I cannot change my own fate...it's a cruel world...haha! But...That's just the cycle of life.
Now I felt more relaxed...ready to face what's ahead of me.
When my school semester starts, I think I will have lesser time to blog. However, I will try my very best to write.
A new life...a new semester....a new beginning...can't wait for it to start...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
*Huuu......mm...* Er...it's me..*dizzy*...Strange...haha..
Had a slight flu, took my medicine, hope I can feel better tomorrow.
It must be my fault for not drinking water. I let the virus got into me...damn!
Suppose to have badminton tomorrow, but now, I don't think I can make it for the trip. Drank quite a lot of water just now...now stomach a bit bloated...haha. I need vitamin C, might eat more oranges tomorrow.
Everytime I have flu, I would have bloated stomach, watery eyes and block nose...terrible..it's a terrible feeling. I hate getting sick! Why can't I be healthy forever?
Recently my luck is really not good..first is my exam results, then it's my health...haiz...WHY ME...poor me...
I really hope something good would happen to me, I can't always have bad luck...
Alright...can't write for long. Will give another post soon.
*dizzy*...haha....I'am OK...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Friday, July 15, 2005
Eh....
What to write now....haha...nothing much happen today though. Quiet day in the office, a quiet lunch, everything seems very peaceful. It's finally Friday...last day of the week..at last!
Its been a long week...
I checked the calendar...think 3 more weeks before National Day. Finally a public holiday! After this have to wait all the way till around October or even November before another holiday comes again. A long wait? Yah....boring...haha
Just watch the results of Project SuperStar....Mr "blind" guy got into the finals! Yah! I like his singing...I think he will get more votes because he doesn't really act humble like some of the contestants. He is more REAL...I believe a lot of people can related to him in that aspect, that might be the reason why he is still HERE...
Some of them, singing might be good, or may look very "handsome" or "pretty". But in this show, X-factor and charisma is also very important. I think Mr "blind" guy meet that expectation..he is the type that even uncles and aunties would also like..haha, maybe because of that he will get more votes. Really hope he can proceed on and win this...
Next week will be the revival rounds...a lot of people is looking at Kelly to get through...haha, but judging from her popularity...maybe not...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
What is happening to me?! Why is it ME?!
Sad...no...quite upset. My exam results really sucks. It's a disaster.Worse, I don't know what I did wrong. I think I can't study...results always not that good. Who can I blame? But...myself.
Everything is just not going well for me..I give my very best, sometimes, the results are not always what you want. A lot of people around me are falling sick, actually I believed that I belonged to that group too. YES! I feel sick... not a fever, sore throat or a bad cough. It's my whole damn body...my heart....my emotions.....my soul...
If every unlucky or unfortunate events were to befall on a guy like me, I think I can foresee a mental breakdown.I am trying to push myself...to the limit. I wanna see the damn light....WHERE IS IT?! Will anyone help me? NO....impossible...have to find a way out myself. I have to be more independent. Life is like a difficult and tricky path to walk, but it's challenging and you will feel a sense of satisfaction when you eventually completed it.
There's one more thing I would like to add on.....I HATE GUESSING....No clues, no idea...like a lost little boy stuck in the middle of no where. If the game is played too long...I might just collapsed and well....give up...don't ever ask me to guess...please..
Can't life be simpler and easier....it's tiring....
(PS: Please do not be affected by what I wrote and send me those "Are you alright?" comments. I am OK...just wanna write to pour out my frustrations. I am still the same old me...enjoy reading)
Signing Off
Fate Boy
posted at 10:20 PM... Show Me The Money^^
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Staring blankly at the computer screen......
Yes, that's me. I am here, what am I doing? Actually I am not sure of that answer myself. Perhaps...I am waiting for someone.Ya that must be it! I am always waiting for that "someone" to come. However, my wait will normally be in vain. How about today? , you might ask, well...ya, still the same..
Am I really a sentimental freak? Can't I get it over with and carry on with my life? Nah...if I really do that, that won't be me. My soul is barren.....where's my soul? Lost....what about my heart? Still intact? Oh...it's here alright..But the feeling is not the same as before. It beats for someone else, it lives because that special someone is still around in this planet. Which is the one heartbeat that I am searching for? Actually it might have been here all along....but did that special someone recognise the sound of the heartbeat? I wanna shout...shout out loud....3 simple words.."I AM HERE!" Not so difficult to say, right?..haha...but will anyone hear that?
It will continue to echo...till the end of time maybe...mmm....I want it to go on and on. Until someone would really hear it, grab it and cherish it.
Till that happens...I have to wait...I know that day will come...
"I want you to know that no matter how long or how difficult this may be, I would always be here, waiting..."
Haha...I'am still here...12am...staring at the computer screen..
I would always do the same for every tomorrow in my life...for you.
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
Oh dear...my muscles are aching...been out the whole day..haha! wow..
Went to my family outing at a Chinese restaurant. Ate quite a lot, saw my cousin's boyfriend, quite a nice chap, mm...maybe quite rich also...keke. Then the attention would be turned to me....because my cousin and I are only 6 months apart, so my other relatives and cousins would ask me when it will be my turn to have a girlfriend..hoho...I also not sure myself. Maybe no girl wants me, oh well, if I really manage to find a girl friend, I would really cherish her.
Haizz...
I still remember the times I get laughed at. People would like to ask me, "Oei, you got girlfriend before or not ah?" I couldn't lie, so I would always reply, "No...". During my schooling days, I am a super shy and quiet boy. Don't even dare to go near girls or approach them. I don't think I have the self-confidence then, maybe because of my nerdy look. When poly came, I made a few improvements, however, the nerdy image just wouldn't go. Mmm...then I think the turning point really came when I went into NS. I had to toll and sweat , lost quite a few kilos then, and also went through a lot. Then I went into Air Force, and started to know what working life is like. I believed I started earlier than most people my age because Air Force is more like a working place than military. Saw quite a few internal conflicts and back stabbing and also know how to get along with people. I learnt a lot....slowly, I start to mature.
After I ORD, found my current job...that place really brush up my communication skills. I had to meet my clients and I had to talk in a professional manner. Learnt the art of talking through a phone...then it just happened, all of a sudden, I really "opened" myself...became another person. Ha ha...you can say that I am forced to grow up..
I believe.... a person, can really mature and think better when you start to pay household expenses and like me, have to pay school fees. Only then you will start to plan and think and become a better person. Don't believe me? You can start doing that now...haha.
I still have lots to learn...I can't be satisfied...My journey has just begun...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
Went to play badminton today....finally joined my friends for a session. It's been a while...Not a bad day, played doubles most of the time. I don't think we stop for a rest, we played consecutive matches for 2 hours. Quite tiring..
Plan to watch Fantastic 4, however my friend backed out so decided not to go. In the end, stayed at home and watched Hong Kong TVB drama. Got this new set of drama from my auntie. Not a bad show...my sister saw me watching it, then I guess she's also addicted to it as well.
My new semester is going to start soon....Guess when that happens, I will have lesser time for entertainment. Haiz...however, I am quite a lazy person, so see how lor...keke.
Tomorrow still have to attend family outing, so hope it won't be too boring for me....keke..
Signing Off
Fate Boy
posted at 10:42 PM... Show Me The Money^^
Friday, July 08, 2005
Oh great! The SUPER STAR results are finally out!~Quite a lot of shockers (as usual)...
Feel sorry for those contestants who got kick out of the competition. Sad right? Haiz....I believe that these contestants got quite a huge fan base. However, you wanna know why they got kick out? Haha...people are L-A-Z-Y lor...Damn lazy...they feel that the action of dialing those hard to remember numbers are a totally waste of time and money. Which is true...haha...or they might say, "Oei! I dial no free gift or lucky draw one ah?" YAH! You get nothing out of it la...wake up your idea!
In order for a contestant to stand a good chance, below are a few ways:
1) Be a Christian and get those church members to support you (remember Singapore Idol? haha)
2) Get ready and distribute your money to a large pool of phone dialers to call your own number.
3) Promise the Abbot of Shao Lin temple that you will be a monk after the contest if he gets the whole of the Shaolin temple disciples to dial your number
Mmm...will let you all know once I can come up with more...
Went to shopping around at Bugis with my friend...he asked to me to guide him in terms of fashion. Well, not say that I am very good though, however, should be able to help a bit. He got a shirt! As for me, I looked around at SEIYU for a working briefcase. Then I came across one very good one, my friend told me that I would look quite stylo carrying it. I was a bit tempted to get that briefcase...I happily flipped the price tag over to check out the price....it's.....S$149.90! Sooooooo expensive...oh dear...mmm...immediately after that I just put it back, *sob* too bad, I am not earning 2K, 3K or more (Famous code). I will try very hard to save up the money I need then I can get that briefcase I wanted!
*Yawn*...damn tired now..keep on reading everyone, I go sleep first!
Seeya all tomorrow!~
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Watched Superstar just now....
2 of them got quite high points from the judges...mmm....but I don't really like them. Do they really have the mass appeal to continue their reign? Some people really don't like those high point contestants. These people may think, what for support them? They got their own supporters...call for what? Yar...true...that is what the majority might be thinking now.
Personally, I quite like the 4th contestant, I think he really showed guts and sing those difficult songs. However, he should try other type of songs as well. Always use the same singer's songs....must pick more cool songs from other singers.
Last week, one of the contestants with the highest point got kick out of the competition. Mmm...I think that guy is a bit cocky and overconfident. Nothing is absolute in this world. I guess at that point of time, he forgot that. Smiling away when the results are about to show on the screen. Maybe he is thinking on how to console someone else and not himself. Oh well, too bad...he's still young though, can always try other means to enter the singing world.
I wonder what will happen to my life, if I ever attempt to take part....
Will be on the stage? Haha....I still have to polish my singing skills. I once think of joining some singing classes, maybe I might do it in the near future.
Fate boy become singing boy? Maybe...haha...
Signing Off
Fate Boy
posted at 10:51 PM... Show Me The Money^^
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
What a boring day I had!
The office is really damn quiet after my 2 colleagues left. I think today is one of those days that I feel that time passes very slowly. My prediction for this week would be a quiet week with nothing much to do. I can choose to sleep now, but it will all go to waste. I don't mind sleeping late, have to get used to it, once my school semester starts, I would have "NO LIFE" written all over me.
Haizzzz....mmm......Why am I complaining? Sometimes, I asked myself..Do I really need to seek excitement in life? Is it really a must? I can just live a routine life without really have to do something spectacular everyday. As long as I look back at every day and knows that everything that should be done are carried out. It's as simple as that.
But....well, not everyone would think like this. If I really attempt the above lifestyle, I guess my circle of friends would be lesser, might be still single without dating a girl before in my life, or worse, won't really have the chance to maybe try out new things. It's worse than boring...much worse.
A lot of people would always tell me, "Hey! Leave it to fate la....". I would normally disagree with them. "What FATE?", haha, don't make me laugh. If you always have these thinking, you would definitely not succeed. Chances don't come easily. You must grab every single chance in sight. For example, if you see a girl you like, then you can't possibly leave this to fate, and try your luck to see if you can meet her again. The sad truth is....WAKE UP YOUR IDEA! It's impossible..... Please go on up to the girl and try to know her. If you choose to sit there, you will always SIT there....HAHA!
In this modern day society, you have to be thick-skinned, you have to be more open. You can't be doing the opposite, you must act.....I would rather lose my pride and face then not to attempt something that I wanna do so badly. This might be my only chance....who knows..Trust me, you don't really wanna live to regret.
So, still can't decide after what I had just said? Mmm....you can always take out a coin, toss it, and let the so call "F-A-T-E" decide for you. Haha....but actually, you just ask yourself, your heart has already long decided on the answer.....
Signing Off
Fate Boy
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